What Now?

I graduate next year and I'm in sort of a pickle.
-I'm darn near broke.
-I have to pay off vehicle damages.
-I have more than a full load at SPSCC + a part time job.
-I have take my dog with me to college which costs money.
-I need a computer for college which costs money
-I have to ride mason transit, which is cheaper than driving but still is 1$ per ride.
-I have to pay for gas.
-I have to figure out transportation for college.
-actually i have to figure out living expenses for general living $$$=(

all so that i can go to college and live a succesful and productive life. I don't even know what i want to do. sometimes i just want to throw it all out the window. but then what? so i choose to go to college, but what am i gonna do after that?

Art?

These are my latest attempts at creating art

1st attempt

Discovery: at this phase i discovered a new medium of art

2nd attempt

Trial: At this phase i see hope for a real masterpiece.

3rd attempt

Realization: At this phase i get frustrated. All my best efforts are lost. I could never create anything wonderful. However, i am not satisfied with my work.

Final Attempt

Completion: at this phase i am very pleased with my work.... until I take a second look. I spent how many hours on this? Why did i do this? it doesn't even look that good. oh well it beats watching tv and at least have something to show for it.

interesting

I read this article on CNN.com. I'm still not sure what to think of it.

I find it hard to believe that russia cares about the common family (stereotyping at its finest). And I'm not sure what effect this will have on the common family. The parents that are suckered into this are probably only thinking one thing... baby=$$$. Then again it could just be a way to celebrate a national holiday.

Worship

Tell me... have you heard this before?



"I just don't connect with the music. I see others connecting and that's great. its just not how i worship. I try but i still cannot connect. it's not my style."

I have heard this from a great friend (a.ha) and my grandmother. almost word for word. This raised a few questions. how come older people listen to a certain kind of music and young listen to another? Do you even have to connect to be worshiping?

Does my grandmother really like the music she listens to or does she just listen to her culture? Does the same go for AJ or even me?

I have reached the same conclusion i have always reached. we are all worshiping to get something. and I don't think that's whats worship is about us. it should be about the big G, God.

"connecting" is merely a phrase used to describe a good feeling. Anybody can "connect" with music. anybody can get a good feeling from any song. So whenever some person says that he/she really "connected" with God during worship I get suspicious.