Nada

I ain't got nothin'. I haven't had any deep thoughts. Nothing worth sharing. That leaves void of any thoughts with which I can entertain my family and the few friends who dare read my blog.

So what do you people want to hear? You people wouldn't respond with an answer. So I'm left... alone and in the dark... without a topic... without a purpose...

This blog has served to bring to light those thoughts that are usually found in the dark. Those found while I'm lying on my mattress unable to think, and yet unable to cease the unendable strings of thoughts that clog my mind.


Now... there are no thoughts. Just static and the darkened bleach white wall three inches from my face.


Just lying in bed. bored. What now? Why is it, sleep doesn't find me? Am I supposed to find sleep? I can hear my heartbeat. Upon noticing my heartbeat it quickens, so I try slowing my heart down.

Breathe in. Hold it. Slowly, release. The clock reads 1:47.

Then it begins. A sudden and loud thudding comes barreling through the thin walls. The evil from next-door. Or more appropriately the evil in me brought to the surface by the music next-door. It is almost impossible to love my neighbor at 1:48 in the morning when some crap Ludacris rap music is blaring in my ears.



My phone goes off at 8:50. It's late but I still feel tired. But time waits for no man so I get up. The day has started.

The quick update:

This current quarter has not been all that great. I could go on and complain but I honestly think that the problem is in my head. It has been so hard to focus in my classes, and when I'm in my room I can't care enough to do a good job on my homework. I don't really know the cause of my self induced problems but hopefully I can clear my head and get determined.


Beyond that I've been able to go to the rec center more this quarter than last quarter. I even tried swimming laps at the pool. It was embarrassing.

And that's it for now.